Milikmu Sungguh – Sungguh

Saya mula sedar penulisan Bahasa Melayu saya semakin teruk (mungkin sudah teruk pun). Oleh itu, saya harus berlatih menulis dalam Bahasa Melayu.

Saya rasa lelaki yang pandai bermain peralatan muzik sangatlah menarik. Mereka nampak sungguh bergaya bermain alat muzik di atas pentas.

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My believe in retribution is keeping me alive!

And the thoughts that elsewhere in the alternate universe, things are so much better!

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Of Bandung Cincau, Red Ruby and Everything in Between!

A nice reunion after 6 months of not seeing each other. I need that dose of civilisation, as a  reminder that there’s so much lives and stories outside these four walls of Bukit Changgang.

And it brought with it the memories of those nights on Messenger talking about bloggers and their lives. Sigh, simplicity that was!

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I need to breathe. This is suffocating. Knowing how I need to make every drop of blood, sweat and tears worth it! This doesn’t involve only me. But the ‘past me’ as well.

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I’m not sure if the Twelve Steps programme have this, but I’m having withdrawal symptoms. The perils of having an empty heart – withdrawal symptoms and confusion.

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Grow Up, Grow Apart, Grow Together

Hey neighbour, tone down your voice! I can hear you fighting.

Yes, it’s almost a year now.  And the list of supposed-lovebirds are growing! And, I’m a faithful observer.

Platinum rule is out of the window!

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Hey you! (You know who you are)

This time, no need to think hard whatsit about! It’s about ye, for ye!

Well, matters of the heart can’t be forced nor can it be undone. Unless you are a determined soul with a stern heart.

And this comes sincerely from me.

Sometimes, we draw a line. Let the differences set us apart. Let the similarities tie us together. Sometimes.

Now, for you, the line is gone. I wish it didn’t. 😐 I understand the attraction, though.

If the wedding bell rings, I’ll go for it.

Honestly, I can see it as a fling, not so as a long-term relationship.

Unless, either one is willing to compromise. But can you live with it?

I guess it’s too soon, really to think about anything. Now, the dreaded, cliche phrase : Just go with the flow!

Whatever it is, I’ll spare you the judging. Because matters of the heart is a complex puzzle. No matter how much you said you are not for him or how he said to your face you are not his type, the heart is one blind and deaf thing.

Dreaded, cliche phrase II: Never say never.

Anyway, don’t worry too much.Things will fall into place. Soon. Or later.

Yes, I may have exaggerated a bit in my attempt to be poetic/philosophical.

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I live for the day when I can spell and pronounce the Iceland volcano!

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I re-read my blog. I realized that I forgot whatever bits of Mandarin that I have in me. Hey, blame Bukit Changgang!

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Love at First Stroke

Ain’t it sounds a bit wrong?

It’s been a long time. I know. But I kinda run out of ideas on what to write. Not to mention, lack of time as well.

So, I got an ego stroke of a life-time! Not to mention, a bit of confidence-booster. No more of self-doubt or self-questioning if I’m a ‘jaguh kampung’. There must be something in me that made her picked me right? So yeah, march on!

And I confidently tell my pen-pal that I don’t see any potential boyfriends here in Bukit Changgang. Yeah, I got over him. Which is a long time ago. But he’s still a habit,sometimes. And his reaction still matters. And he’s in the list of you-have-to-prove- to-them-you’re-better because I have an ego and dignity to repair. Considering he might know that I LIKED him. Yeahh, I have ego!

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Roses and Violets

Roses are red. Violets are blue.
God made me beautiful. What happened to you?

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